I am currently watching a Youtube Video about chemistry. It is about a rate of reaction, it is my chemistry chapter 1 (lol why I even tell you guys about this..)

Moving on!

Okay. I'm just going to call this girl as T

In sem 1, I am quite close to this girl. She somehow is like me. Childish but at the sometimes serious. We also like to talk a lot about things and issues. We both seem to quite "click" to each other even though she is not my roommate.

Then, here comes sem 2. Things seem not quite right. I somehow become quite awkward with her for no reason?? I mean, why can it even happen. We are so close back then in sem 1, and we did not see each other only for 1 month and a few weeks (semester break), but things become so different right now.

I am not very comfortable when I speak to her
I don't know what to speak to her.
I somehow want to get away from her.

What is happening to me...

This sounds very ridiculous, and it somehow bothers me. Well, because it is my housemate. We see each other, and when things like this happen, I certainly cannot avoid not seeing her. Btw, I love this friendship. It bothers me that I cannot talk comfortably with her anymore. And to be worse, I can also sense that awkwardness from her too!

Sometimes I think, why I bother myself thinking about gaining attention from someone that is not even important? I mean, why I can't focus on people that stay with me along the way? Yess that is the thing I should do. Maybe there is hikmah that Allah wants to show. I also should focus more on people that always try to keep me happy. I maybe not have a lot of friends but I have a lot of blessing that Allah give to me. It is some kind of friends, but in another form or maybe in a different form of reward. Maybe it is my family, my health, my family's stable financial, my good achievement in academic. There's a lot of it, and maybe some of them I don't even realize.

That is why we should be thankful and grateful. Say Alhamdulillah every day. Because Allah is very very fair. You could say that you are not lucky. But actually, you just do not see the bigger picture of yourself and realize that you are actually lucky. Some people want the thing that you have, yet you did not appreciate it.

That is it. There is azan Johor right now. So, may God bless you and helps you to lead a better life with being thankful every day. Amin.