okay.
from where we should start?
there is a lot of things I want to rant. when I say a lot. IT IS a lot
First of all, I already making friends in my uni. I would just name her as Anne. Okay, she's funny happy seems very click to me. But... just but.... she seems to be very bad-tempered and always tells you to do this instead of this...questioning every act you do, which is very contrary with my new concept (that I try to implement myself with) which is do whatever we pleased and don't fcking try to please other people just because they said so because this is our life, we should be the one who controls it, we are the one that needs to face it one day NOT THEM.
And you know... I am quite blur.. which I really hate... I wish I could be more cepat pickup i don't want people to think me as lumbar... NO IM NOT. need to fix this... So this girl keeps scolding me for being a blur...:( I mean I love her to be my friends.. but to always constantly being scolded in front of people makes you.. done? hmmm. Compared to my last friend they are quite patient and just laugh it off about my 'blurriness', so at that time I really feel comfortable and does not feel embarrassed about my blurriness, I know that there are people who always supporting me despite my weakness and I just accept who I am and this makes me confident. Contrast to my situations right now
I want to be with someone that I can feel confident with, I want to be with someone that can uplift me and helps me with my weakness. but today's situation is.. meh.
so right now I quite don't know what to do. am I still want to be friend with her? and if I'm not, whom will I friend with?(hmm you have A LOT of choice, friends is EVERYWHERE don't be afraid to find new friends, don't just because of afraid not having friends you are stuck in toxic relationship :( be strong and do what's best for you, it is you have to bear it, don't make you feel regret at the end of the day) does it not be super awkward if I suddenly want to distance myself ( I MEAN HELLO SHE SHOULD KNOW WHY.. because of her attitude!)
I sometimes feel awkward with her,, don't know why can't explain. i mean i am awkward myself... so i kind of pity her for getting me as her friends because she seems so friendly and not awkward at all... and then there is me...feeling awkward all the time until she has to face it too lol
i also find myself distracted from my studies thinking about this friends matter. i constantly think about why we are so awkward, the hurtful words she has thrown at me, the moment she scolded me... IT BUGGING ME i mean i should be studying!!!! this is such a simple matter and i should not think about this! NOO
i sometimes find myself agitated especially when it comes to dinner, sometimes i need to eat dinner only with her. so like before going, i feel so worried that it might be going to be awkward at the table waiting for our food LOLLLL i know right i am a fool.
i mean TRUTHFULLY i love her being my friend like she is so funny, there is some moment i find myself smiling alone thinking back about our jokes together and stuff .... but still this whole uncomfortable situation with her disturb me a lot
i have a lot of mission entering uni. i want to be active joining event. i want to be kind. i want to help people as possibles as i could. i don't want to judge people instantly and talk bad about people when actually we don't know the truth. i want to love myself and be myself. i don't want to care about other's judgment. i want to be myself!!! i want to feel confident just wear anything that i want and don't constantly think about others BECAUSE APPARENTLY, people don't give a damn about you.
There are selfish. they have their own business to do too. they have their own problems that keep bugging on their mind too, then so do you!!! just walk whenever you want.just do whatever you want. be confident because they don't look at you!
You are pretty don't belittle yourself, even though Anne has said something bad about you, MAMPOS DIA LAH then. wth i am so worth! who are you to think i am like that. i am the one who know better about myself. I want to have pretty inner and outer. i want to have a beautiful attitude and heart. that is what pretty is about
BE YOURSELF!! LOVE YOURSELF!! if you don't, then who does?? you live on your own right now. It is all you alone. at the end of the day, it is you who have to bear all the situations alone. not with your friends, even though your family and parents. You will be judged by ALLAH, alone..all by yourself. so be independant. at the end of the day, it is you who you can rely on. Only you, so trust yourself.
don't think much about friends. think about you first. make yourself the priorities. JANGAN PIKIR KAWAN PIKIR DIRI SENDIRI DULU.
also yesterday i cut my hair BY MYSELF.. and i turns out UGLY HAHAHAHAHAHAH. it becomes too short lolll. im dumb i know, people do mistakes. HUMANS do mistakes. Just be proud of your mistake and just try to improve and learn your lesson. The world is about improving yourself and find your strength. The world is where ALLAH test His hamba, so be strong! Allah is testing you to make you a better person inside out.
from where we should start?
there is a lot of things I want to rant. when I say a lot. IT IS a lot
First of all, I already making friends in my uni. I would just name her as Anne. Okay, she's funny happy seems very click to me. But... just but.... she seems to be very bad-tempered and always tells you to do this instead of this...questioning every act you do, which is very contrary with my new concept (that I try to implement myself with) which is do whatever we pleased and don't fcking try to please other people just because they said so because this is our life, we should be the one who controls it, we are the one that needs to face it one day NOT THEM.
And you know... I am quite blur.. which I really hate... I wish I could be more cepat pickup i don't want people to think me as lumbar... NO IM NOT. need to fix this... So this girl keeps scolding me for being a blur...:( I mean I love her to be my friends.. but to always constantly being scolded in front of people makes you.. done? hmmm. Compared to my last friend they are quite patient and just laugh it off about my 'blurriness', so at that time I really feel comfortable and does not feel embarrassed about my blurriness, I know that there are people who always supporting me despite my weakness and I just accept who I am and this makes me confident. Contrast to my situations right now
I want to be with someone that I can feel confident with, I want to be with someone that can uplift me and helps me with my weakness. but today's situation is.. meh.
so right now I quite don't know what to do. am I still want to be friend with her? and if I'm not, whom will I friend with?(hmm you have A LOT of choice, friends is EVERYWHERE don't be afraid to find new friends, don't just because of afraid not having friends you are stuck in toxic relationship :( be strong and do what's best for you, it is you have to bear it, don't make you feel regret at the end of the day) does it not be super awkward if I suddenly want to distance myself ( I MEAN HELLO SHE SHOULD KNOW WHY.. because of her attitude!)
I sometimes feel awkward with her,, don't know why can't explain. i mean i am awkward myself... so i kind of pity her for getting me as her friends because she seems so friendly and not awkward at all... and then there is me...feeling awkward all the time until she has to face it too lol
i also find myself distracted from my studies thinking about this friends matter. i constantly think about why we are so awkward, the hurtful words she has thrown at me, the moment she scolded me... IT BUGGING ME i mean i should be studying!!!! this is such a simple matter and i should not think about this! NOO
i sometimes find myself agitated especially when it comes to dinner, sometimes i need to eat dinner only with her. so like before going, i feel so worried that it might be going to be awkward at the table waiting for our food LOLLLL i know right i am a fool.
i mean TRUTHFULLY i love her being my friend like she is so funny, there is some moment i find myself smiling alone thinking back about our jokes together and stuff .... but still this whole uncomfortable situation with her disturb me a lot
i have a lot of mission entering uni. i want to be active joining event. i want to be kind. i want to help people as possibles as i could. i don't want to judge people instantly and talk bad about people when actually we don't know the truth. i want to love myself and be myself. i don't want to care about other's judgment. i want to be myself!!! i want to feel confident just wear anything that i want and don't constantly think about others BECAUSE APPARENTLY, people don't give a damn about you.
There are selfish. they have their own business to do too. they have their own problems that keep bugging on their mind too, then so do you!!! just walk whenever you want.just do whatever you want. be confident because they don't look at you!
You are pretty don't belittle yourself, even though Anne has said something bad about you, MAMPOS DIA LAH then. wth i am so worth! who are you to think i am like that. i am the one who know better about myself. I want to have pretty inner and outer. i want to have a beautiful attitude and heart. that is what pretty is about
BE YOURSELF!! LOVE YOURSELF!! if you don't, then who does?? you live on your own right now. It is all you alone. at the end of the day, it is you who have to bear all the situations alone. not with your friends, even though your family and parents. You will be judged by ALLAH, alone..all by yourself. so be independant. at the end of the day, it is you who you can rely on. Only you, so trust yourself.
don't think much about friends. think about you first. make yourself the priorities. JANGAN PIKIR KAWAN PIKIR DIRI SENDIRI DULU.
also yesterday i cut my hair BY MYSELF.. and i turns out UGLY HAHAHAHAHAHAH. it becomes too short lolll. im dumb i know, people do mistakes. HUMANS do mistakes. Just be proud of your mistake and just try to improve and learn your lesson. The world is about improving yourself and find your strength. The world is where ALLAH test His hamba, so be strong! Allah is testing you to make you a better person inside out.
